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Monday, June 09, 2008
I wwas sure it was our destiny to be friends. From such a young age, joined together by on passion that eventually took over our lives. Years and years and years and years passed, and only rarely did slight thoughts of you cross my mind. Never did I think I'd see you again. Never did I think you were so close by all these years. Then, that one fatal day, I saw you. You were taking the exam. I recognized you, it was my chance. I was shy, but I mustered enough courage to go say hi. You and your friends shrugged me off, ignored me, and I thought "What a bitch." And I crossed my fingers and hoped you wouldn't make it. That first day, I sat alone, completely lost, completely new, completely terrified and completely on my own. I think it built a lot of character. As I scanned the room, I noticed you were not there. And I couldn't of been happier. Then you made your grand entrance, late, with one of the other girls you had been with at the exam. My heart sank and I had a feeling it was going to be a rough year. But that was far from true. Right away, we formed a bond, and finally I jogged your memory. You remembered me now. The nickname and the goals and the dandelions. It's been over two years since then, and our friendship only grew stronger. You were there, always. You were a best friend. I was there for you when your dog died that summer, and you were there for me when my heart broke. I was there for you when you needed a partner, and I was there for you to help you pass math. Now I sit on the bus, and I watch you. I wonder, what happened. Why every time I hear another story, another little part of me inside dies. Another part of me breaks. Another part of me is lost. And why is it sometimes so easy, so calm.
"At least she didn't bring you down with her."
At this point, I'm not sure that was a good thing.. I miss you, like you wouldn't believe. Yet there you are, everyday. I love you, I hope you know that. I always wil. And I'm still here for you, I always will be. If you need to cry, if you need to laugh or if you simply need to be the real you for a little bit. I'm here. Listening and caring.
No one can understand, how hard it has been. No one can understand the battle I've been fighting in my head, trying to decide the right thing. The good thing. And for the first time, I'm doing the right thing for me, not for you or anyone else...
But it's hard, because I miss you. Often I need you, and when I catch glimpses of you, I want to reach out and grab you and hold you and make it stop. But I'm not necessary anymore. You have them... essig? You have them, and me.. I have my dignity I suppose..
But then why do I feel like I'm still going down. As though, now, I'm bringing myself down, and this time... I'm all alone...
djhfjashfasfas
none of this makes sense.
Posted at 11:55:15 pm by dinoxjo
will lift the second for you.
Posted at 1:44:28 am by dinoxjo
to flyyyyy,
and i promise,
you'll get at least one foot
off the ground.
Posted at 1:43:44 am by dinoxjo
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
whattup dug? ;)
Posted at 9:04:43 pm by dinoxjo
These have been, the most stellar times, ever.
Summer, I can taste you.
Life, I can feel you.
Happiness, take me...
Far, far, far away.
Posted at 1:55:23 am by dinoxjo
Saturday, June 07, 2008
For weeks and weeks and weeks and weeks and then some more weeks, I'd been looking forward to this. Ever since he told me there was a new album coming out, I knew this was maybe my one and only chance to see them. Live. Live. Live. Weeks, and weeks passed. Everyday I checked, only to be dissapointed. Until one day, there it was. June 6th, 2008. The day my life would seriously be complete. I was extatic, I even posted about it here. I nearly peed my pants with joy. Weeks passed, and finally the new album, on may 13th. I couldn't wait, nuh huh, I went at lunch. (Props to best buy opening near my school). I listened to it every night, counting down the days. But with everyday it got closer, the less real it seemed. I was sitting in class, thinking about it, but I couldn't register it. People were shocked by how unenthused I was, but I couldn't help it. It was real in my mind. And it carried on like this, until there I was, standing in the crowd, front row, only a meter or two away from Ben. There he was, with his hair, and his beard, and his voice, and his guitar. There, right there. I felt weak in the knees, I was light headed, I breathed heavy. They played and played, and still, I could not register. No way. It wasn't real. I was going to wake up, and it would all be a dream. Someone, pinch me. Two hours, probably more. Just, wow. It finished, my feet throbbed, my throat was raw and my ears rung. Everything spun, and she just hugged me. I could have cried. I could have sat there and balled. But I didn't, I wanted to be happy, this was the happiest moment in my life so far... We bought shirts and talked to friends and headed down to sit on the docks. We let the night surround us, and still it would not sink in that I had seen them. Live. Right there, in front of me, real people, live. Still now, sitting here, hours later, I can not let it sink it. But I know it happened. I felt it, I heard it, I remember it.
There are just no words to express how much it meant to me. No words to express my lov for them. No words to express any of the things I felt, experienced and witnessed tonight. It was a pure oblivion of bliss. My heart beat so fast, my voice went so loud, my feet hurt so much, and every second of it, every single milisecond was more and more worth it.
I still can not believe, I still can not express, everything... simply everything was perfect, perfect, perfect. A night to remember, a night to cherish, a night to keep reliving in the depths of my mind over and over for a long, long, long time.
Death Cab For Cutie, Ben, Chris, Nick, Jason.
Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
For existing, for making amazing music, for doing what you do, and for caring enough about your fans to come all the way here and play your hearts out. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.
THANK YOU!
Transatlanticism
The Atlantic was born today and I'll tell you how
The clouds above opened up and let it out
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean
Making islands where no island should go
Oh, no
Most people were overjoyed; they took to their boats
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door
Have been silenced forevermore
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh, no
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
I need you so much closer
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on
So come on, come on I closed my eyes,
Let the sounds enter,
And my body sway.
At this moment I was
infinite.
Posted at 1:05:21 am by dinoxjo
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“The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future.”
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