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Tuesday, June 10, 2008
I try, I try, I try and I'm trying.
Posted at 12:06:18 am by dinoxjo
Monday, June 09, 2008
I wwas sure it was our destiny to be friends. From such a young age, joined together by on passion that eventually took over our lives. Years and years and years and years passed, and only rarely did slight thoughts of you cross my mind. Never did I think I'd see you again. Never did I think you were so close by all these years. Then, that one fatal day, I saw you. You were taking the exam. I recognized you, it was my chance. I was shy, but I mustered enough courage to go say hi. You and your friends shrugged me off, ignored me, and I thought "What a bitch." And I crossed my fingers and hoped you wouldn't make it. That first day, I sat alone, completely lost, completely new, completely terrified and completely on my own. I think it built a lot of character. As I scanned the room, I noticed you were not there. And I couldn't of been happier. Then you made your grand entrance, late, with one of the other girls you had been with at the exam. My heart sank and I had a feeling it was going to be a rough year. But that was far from true. Right away, we formed a bond, and finally I jogged your memory. You remembered me now. The nickname and the goals and the dandelions. It's been over two years since then, and our friendship only grew stronger. You were there, always. You were a best friend. I was there for you when your dog died that summer, and you were there for me when my heart broke. I was there for you when you needed a partner, and I was there for you to help you pass math. Now I sit on the bus, and I watch you. I wonder, what happened. Why every time I hear another story, another little part of me inside dies. Another part of me breaks. Another part of me is lost. And why is it sometimes so easy, so calm.
"At least she didn't bring you down with her."
At this point, I'm not sure that was a good thing.. I miss you, like you wouldn't believe. Yet there you are, everyday. I love you, I hope you know that. I always wil. And I'm still here for you, I always will be. If you need to cry, if you need to laugh or if you simply need to be the real you for a little bit. I'm here. Listening and caring.
No one can understand, how hard it has been. No one can understand the battle I've been fighting in my head, trying to decide the right thing. The good thing. And for the first time, I'm doing the right thing for me, not for you or anyone else...
But it's hard, because I miss you. Often I need you, and when I catch glimpses of you, I want to reach out and grab you and hold you and make it stop. But I'm not necessary anymore. You have them... essig? You have them, and me.. I have my dignity I suppose..
But then why do I feel like I'm still going down. As though, now, I'm bringing myself down, and this time... I'm all alone...
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none of this makes sense.
Posted at 11:55:15 pm by dinoxjo
will lift the second for you.
Posted at 1:44:28 am by dinoxjo
to flyyyyy,
and i promise,
you'll get at least one foot
off the ground.
Posted at 1:43:44 am by dinoxjo
Sunday, June 08, 2008
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
whattup dug? ;)
Posted at 9:04:43 pm by dinoxjo
These have been, the most stellar times, ever.
Summer, I can taste you.
Life, I can feel you.
Happiness, take me...
Far, far, far away.
Posted at 1:55:23 am by dinoxjo
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“The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future.”
- Audrey Hepburn
“We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.”
- Albert Einstein
“Just because you get distracted by the silver lining, doesn't mean there's not still a huge dark cloud behind it.”
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