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Friday, June 13, 2008
Thank you, for even just being alive.
I know without you, I wouldn't be.
Posted at 8:53:57 pm by dinoxjo
Freedom approaching, yet I didn't feel free.
I felt heavy, weighed down, scared...
As she looked at me with the most sincere eyes,
I felt bad, horrible... and I felt love, care...
True friendship.
I felt the friendship I'd seeked so long for,
Yet it was only now... now when it was all about to end.
Tears filled my eyes, my stomach was in knots...
Fire ignited, my water boiled over...
...
You're not a baby, you're not mother-like, you're not a pussy.
Don't listen to them, don't, don't, don't.
She can go die if you're too nice,
And they can go die too if you're not a risk taker.
He can shut up with his "jokes",
And she can go pick on someone else.
Be you.
Please.
I need.. to believe in at least someone.
Posted at 8:49:55 pm by dinoxjo
A few things I know about me
- Family is not my strong point
- I try to be far too independent
- Coping and dealing is hard for me
- Panicking is my solution for everything
- I'm not a nice person, even when I try
- DCFC is my life
- Soccer runs my life
....
yeah, that's pretty much all I'm sure of
oh, and I have trust issues and hate being tickled.
Posted at 12:57:22 am by dinoxjo
Posted at 12:52:27 am by dinoxjo
All good things come to an end. You push and push and push, waiting for me to fall off the edge. You push and push and push, hoping I'll fall off the edge. You push and push and push, and it's all a game for you. I don't push back, I don't look back, and eventually I fall. I fall, fall, fall. And you get angry at me for falling. You yell and you scream and you tell me to climb back up. Why? Just so you can push and push and push again, and wait for me to lose my balance once me.
So you know what? Let me make it easy for you,
This time, I'M JUMPING.
Posted at 12:30:49 am by dinoxjo
Disbelief & Lack of Electricity
What a surreal 8 days...
Some the good kind, some the bad.
It all started friday, after that infinite night.
I could not grasp what was happening,
I could not accept how amazing it all was.
Then came saturday, with the blistering heat
and humidity at a minimum of 85%...
And there I was, out on that field, running.
I still can not grasp how I survived,
and how it could be so hot.
And Sunday, the studyage.
I could not believe, we were actually there.
For some reason, I had never thought it'd happen.
Monday, it was the last of the square head.
No more this year, no more next year.
And a soccer game, with a score, I could not...
comprehend was real. A loss so horrible, and playing
even worse...
Tuesday, a storm that my eyes did not believe.
So many odd coincidences, far too many...
10 years later, 1 year later, same class, same week..
Too, too weird.. it was just impossible
Not to mention a power outage...
Wednesday, a second night, studying by candle light,
I sat there, utterly baffled.. not believing my eyes.
Not believing the darkness that surrounded me!
Thursday, an exam so hard, I did not believe it was real
An exam that shook me, from head to toe.
I sat there, not grasping the fact that the fatal day had come.
That my death was waiting for me, up the stairs,
around the corner, in B210...
And Friday (although not here, I can predict)
The last day, it's here...
Impossible to believe how it all went so fast..
Impossible to believe, I am finally free.
(And perhaps Saturday,
A party for the books.)
Posted at 12:22:16 am by dinoxjo
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“The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future.”
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