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Sunday, June 15, 2008
Pool talk and after thoughts.
The two me's are at it again.
I try to follow my heart,
But even it is confused.
This time, there is no guidance,
There is no path.
This time, I'm dizzy and my head hurts.
This time, I have to choose alone.
Alone.
Alone.
This time, I'm seriously lost.
Posted at 11:50:41 pm by dinoxjo
Did you know you're a mystery?
Did you know that?
Did you know how much I love you.
Did you know that?
Posted at 11:23:06 pm by dinoxjo
After recent events, a long week and an intense year, I've decided that a period of isolation is much needed. After the 19th, I've decided to cut myself off from as many people as I can. I'll have work and soccer. Perhaps a tad anti-social, perhaps a tad masochistic, perhaps simply a tad retarded. But for now, it's the only path I can see fit to follow. I've said too much, I've done too much, too many people know too much and I love you all way to frign much to keep doing this.. to keep going on like this. I'm sorry, to all of you. I've done it too much, I've fucked up too much, I've hurt you all too much. You, who has done nothing but care. You who has always stood by. You who has always noticed. You who has been the best girl-friend yet. You who has always made me smile. You who has taken all this shit. You... you.. you... there's too many. And I'm sorry. And I'm done, I'm out, I'm gone. Forget me, forget me, forget me. Please, as a final favor.. a final gift to me.. don't make this hard. Don't make this hard for me... just... walk away. Turn your backs, look at the lights and move forward. I'll be okay, I'll be great, just forget me.
I gues I'm just a coward,
running from everything.
Posted at 10:20:34 pm by dinoxjo
Friday, June 13, 2008
Thank you, for even just being alive.
I know without you, I wouldn't be.
Posted at 8:53:57 pm by dinoxjo
Freedom approaching, yet I didn't feel free.
I felt heavy, weighed down, scared...
As she looked at me with the most sincere eyes,
I felt bad, horrible... and I felt love, care...
True friendship.
I felt the friendship I'd seeked so long for,
Yet it was only now... now when it was all about to end.
Tears filled my eyes, my stomach was in knots...
Fire ignited, my water boiled over...
...
You're not a baby, you're not mother-like, you're not a pussy.
Don't listen to them, don't, don't, don't.
She can go die if you're too nice,
And they can go die too if you're not a risk taker.
He can shut up with his "jokes",
And she can go pick on someone else.
Be you.
Please.
I need.. to believe in at least someone.
Posted at 8:49:55 pm by dinoxjo
A few things I know about me
- Family is not my strong point
- I try to be far too independent
- Coping and dealing is hard for me
- Panicking is my solution for everything
- I'm not a nice person, even when I try
- DCFC is my life
- Soccer runs my life
....
yeah, that's pretty much all I'm sure of
oh, and I have trust issues and hate being tickled.
Posted at 12:57:22 am by dinoxjo
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“The past, I think, has helped me appreciate the present - and I don't want to spoil any of it by fretting about the future.”
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“We can't solve problems by using the same kind of thinking we used when we created them.”
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