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Friday, May 16, 2008
So a day, today, will come to an end for me, And I will crawl into bed, with his sweater, And I will lay on my side, with her book, And I will press play, on my CD, And I will let today go, where it should be.
Posted at 11:16:49 pm by dinoxjo
From: The Perks of Being a Wallflower By: Stephen Chbosky
Once on a yellow piece of paper with green lines he wrote a poemAnd he called it "Chops" because that was the name of his dogAnd that's what it was all aboutAnd his teacher gave him an A and a gold starAnd his mother hung it on the kitchen door and read it to his auntsThat was the year Father Tracy took all the kids to the zooAnd he let them sing on the busAnd his little sister was born with tiny toenails and no hairAnd his mother and father kissed a lotAnd the girl around the corner sent him a Valentine signed with a row of X's and he had to ask his father what the X's meantAnd his father always tucked him in bed at nightAnd was always there to do it.Once on a piece of white paper with blue lines he wrote a poemAnd he called it "Autumn" because that was the name of the seasonAnd that's what it was all aboutAnd his teacher gave him an A and asked him to write more clearlyAnd his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because of its new paintAnd the kids told him that Father Tracy smoked cigarsAnd left butts on the pewsAnd sometimes they would burn holesThat was the year his sister got glasses with thick lenses and black framesAnd the girl around the corner laughed when he asked her to go see Santa ClausAnd the kids told him why his mother and father kissed a lotAnd his father never tucked him in bed at nightAnd his father got mad when he cried for him to do it. Once on a paper torn from his notebook he wrote a poemAnd he called it "Innocence: A Question" because that was the question about his girlAnd that's what it was all aboutAnd his professor gave him an A and a strange steady lookAnd his mother never hung it on the kitchen door because he never showed herThat was the year that Father Tracy diedAnd he forgot how the end of the Apostle's Creed wentAnd he caught his sister making out on the back porchAnd his mother and father never kissed or even talkedAnd the girl around the corner wore too much makeupThat made him cough when he kissed her but he kissed her anyway because that was the thing to doAnd at three A.M. he tucked himself into bed his father snoring soundlyThat's why on the back of a brown paper bag he tried another poemAnd he called it "Absolutely Nothing"Because that's what it was really all aboutAnd he gave himself an Aand a slash on each damned wristAnd he hung it on the bathroom door because this time he didn't think he could reach the kitchen.
Posted at 11:07:10 pm by dinoxjo
Street Corners & Hooker Boots.
Sitting at the corner, I watched the cars passing, secretly wishing one would lose control and run me over. We sat, and I rambled, and you listened, and I paused, and you looked, and I rambled, and you listened, and I stopped, and I let my eyes fill, and you spoke, and I let my heart slow, and you spoke some more, and I let my heart slow some more, and you stopped, and I let it all sink in, and you looked, and I sighed, and we both sat, in silence, and let the winds blow, and the cars pass, as I secretly hoped one would lose control and run me over. And we then stood, and I sighed some more, and you said not to worry, and you smiled, and I smiled, and we said goodbye, and I walked away, and I didn't look back, because I never look back, and I kept going, and I let my feet take me, I let them carry me to the park. And I let my heart beat fast, and I let my stomach do flips, and I let my head swirl, and I let my feelings get the best of me, and I walked, and I walked, and I thought, and I let my hands hang at my sides, and I let my feet do the logic, and I let my brain wander, and I moved, like liquid, across the streets, and through the trees. I walked back to where we sat, and I let my head fill, and my eyes swell, and I tried to remember your words, I tried to remember your voice, and I let out a whimper, and I wiped my eyes, and I walked home, and I watched the cars pass, and I hoped, one last desperate time, that one would lose control and run me over.
Posted at 9:58:12 pm by dinoxjo
I heard my name, I slowly turned my head, figuring it was one of the same favors you were asking. And with your hands you signaled, you and I, I and you, you and I, talk. Talk. Talk. And the simple gestures, they warmed my heart. A smile spread across my face, and my eyes squinted up as they do when I smile without control. You continued with your gestures, for extra kicks, and I laughed and nodded. On a day like today, a simple acknowledgement from an old friend was all I truly needed. And now the simple words, you never spoke before, written so clearly, so plainly, so sincerely right there, they jumpstarted my heart, for all the right reasons. There is nothing more than care and friendship here, and for once I want no more than that. A true friend. One like you, you who has no one. A true friend, a true friend, a true person.
Posted at 9:54:35 pm by dinoxjo
Monday, May 12, 2008
I want so badly to need you here. I keep trying to believe this will pass, that soon you will come back to us. But I know that's not the case. It seems you have stepped way, way, way, way over the line... and I'm just glad I didn't let you drag me down with you. As I look back behind us, I see the path of destruction you have left. I'm not sure if any of it is reversible, or if you even want to.. But I guess, unless something changes... I'll have to let you go along with the others too..
Posted at 10:46:33 pm by dinoxjo
It's been six weeks, since I've seen you, my dear friend. I still hear your voice at night, quietly calling out to me. But I have not reached for the drawer, I have not caved. I'm standing my grown, I'm gonna wait this out.
Six weeks...
maybe this is finally it? The End?
Posted at 3:56:57 am by dinoxjo
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